Like any developer, I have done a lot of interviews. The interviews are a bit diff, I think,
since I have no computer science degree. I'm a physicist by training. Some people may think
that probably means I'm smart. I am not.
One of the things I learned as a child was that I'm not smart. I'm not wise. I'm not intelligent.
There is nothing special about me and there are far more better people than me in any area.
I forced myself to live with that. It's hard since family and friends say otherwise but that, I
believe, does not help me at all.
At my age, I've learned to live with that. It's sort of sad since I know I'll be behind. I'll
be left behind. It's hard to accept that but I'm ok with the logic of how Nature/Reality seems to work.
I recently had to decline to continue with a process with a company because its process involved
challenges like the ones you have at Facebook, Amazon, Google, Microsoft, you name it. They also
wanted to know how much time it took me to solve the problem. To me, the company wanted the best of
the best which, well, I am not.
I could have fake it. Nowadays, you can find anything on the internet and I'm positive I could have
found the solution. To what end? I'm not smart. Cheating won't make me smart, I think. It was not even
about being honest. I think I would cheat if along the way I got smart but I really doubted that's the case.
I like to believe that what I have cultivated is that for most things I don't need to be smart, I just
have to be careful. I doubt I'm the best but I do think I best myself every day.